Monday, September 24, 2012

Trying harder,
trying again.

Its been so long since the last blog post. I'd like to think that a lot of things happened within this post and the last. If i remember it properly, I would put it in a chronological order but I can't and I don't think it really matters. :)

So, my sister has passed the interview for the student exchange to Busan, South Korea. There was all her random farewells and 21st birthday celebration here and there.

So with that, we went back to Ipoh to visit our grandpa and mum and had dinner with aunt. And went for the awful, terrible dental appointment. But there's no good news, there's never good news when it comes to dentists. Hmph. Transferring to KL would take REAL long. Again. AGAIN! Arghhhh. 

Besides that, I had to meet the one person whose still there for me in Ipoh, who also doesn't take pictures with me. But because he told me that, I will start compiling an entire album of pictures with him. HELLO, SAM! :D imy.

So we celebrated her birthday with Mummy..

...and Daddy.

And I almost finished every single one of her birthday cakes. Got vanilla cake, vanilla with custard cake, black forest cake. #fat

We also took time to visit Grandma, who didn't remember my name but I'm glad she's still doing somewhat okay. :) Please excuse my ugly face, my eyes were swollen for some unknown reason. :(

Somewhere in between, I had time to skype with unnie. , 보고 싶었어. ᅲᅲ

So, I also HAD TO go to Jeffrey Cheah Scholarship Awards Ceremony. I shook hands with him. Yay. #sarcasm
 But, I got my certificate and I got my scholarship, so yay also. No sarcasm this time. The guy sitting next to me was just.. sleeping the whole time. Aihhhh. Daddy, Aunty, Cammie and Unnie came to 'support' me. And all I did was walk across the stage for 10 seconds. Heh.

The most recent event, in conjunction with my sister's 21st birthday, we kinda tagged along the Monash Engineering graduation after party and went to Zouk. Lol. I walked in using my sister's IC. It was a pretty fun night, interesting incidents. But why did it have to rain when we were trying to get home. I was cold and wet and it was so early in the morning. I slept the entire Saturday away. In other words, the pile of work on my table never reduced. :\

Whatever the consequences were, I made the best out of it and I'm clearly aware of all that was happening. Mistakes happen, I'm sorry I'm not perfect. It will not happen again. 
It might not happen again.  

I hope I'll be forgiven someday. I'm sorry for the way everything turned out. But I am eternally grateful to have someone like you. It'll take some getting used to, but I know you're good for me. Nothing will change that. Thank you, love.

I think I'm missing out on some stuff but I can't recall. A little update on uni. Its tiring. So tiring. Somewhat boring. Sigh. I don't know what it means to me yet. All i'm trying to do is get through everyday. Its time to search for something new. Something so unfamiliar and something so lonely. All over again. 

That meeting might have triggered a little emotions, a little confusion, but also made me see things a little clearer. I didn't find out something I didn't already know about myself. It was mostly confirmations on thoughts I already had. Maybe my mum saw a new light when it comes to me now. Haha. I hope.

It doesn't mean that if I don't love you forever, that I don't love you now.

"No shits are given." 
"And none will be taken."

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