"Zone of ambiguity"

Sunday, April 26, 2015

 Warning: Picture Heavy Post. 

In my mind a lot of things have happened already, but that's probably because everyday is a really long day and its been super busy (thankfully). But I was almost reaching my tipping point already, with the biggest assessment and presentation on the same week as my horribly timed fever and unavoidable sadness that runs around my mind like it owns the place, it was madness. I think I almost didn't make it through the last two weeks.

Fortunately, the harder times have finally passes, but the hard times are still continuing. This semester is really one hell of a semester. :( I'm not sure what I feel going through this on my own, but I guess eventually I'm not exactly alone. The weather's been crazy, its cold then its hot. Reminds me of a certain someone I used to know :| 

In celebrating Sook Min's birthday, that was a rather fun night. The live band was great, the food was great, the company was great, the scary glass ceiling was great, but the beer was not so great.

The scenery was great. City lights from high above, always my favorite kind. 

Right after that, it was another week of assignments and work, being in the freezing cold library until night, having dinner with mummy who was here for most of the week, more work, more group meetings. Which brings me back to how grateful I am for my group members this year, no more horror group stories this time. 

And it doesn't end here. This International Business Challenge subject really lives up to its name, its a new challenge every week. Look at our eye bags :/

From there, along with the bad weather, I attended what would most likely be the last prom of my life. I think with all the initially negative responses, most of us were glad we made it. :) 

With all my Prince Charmings for the night, missing one I think haha.

Following that, I call it Part 2, haha. It was a rather crazy night, I left my entire wallet at home, no $$, no ID, no nothing. However, I have this best friend, who is a pretty awesome one at that, we decided to make the best out of the night, and went back home, got changed, rushed all the way to the after party ;)

One picture eyes so big, one picture eyes so small.

I have reason to believe that this dress is somewhat cursed. I tend to end up getting a little too much to drink every time I wear it. At least every single time, I'm sure to have a good night.

I'll be sure to remember all these people in the future, even if our journey would end soon. Good times, good times.

Its still April. I had struggled so long, and its still April.

Its okay though. I am living through every single moment of this journey, good times and bad times, all of it. I better learn this lesson cause I'm not sure if I'll make it through the next tunnel anymore.

Keep holding on, keep letting go.

One step forward finally.

Not seen, not heard, nowhere.

Monday, April 13, 2015

"Death comes in the relentless ticking of the clock, the passing of minutes, the feeling of being torn between wanting time to heal all wounds but not wanting the passage of time to erode your memory of us." --Source


Tuesday, April 7, 2015

10 steps backwards, 1 step forward.

"The grass always seems greener on the other side.
But who the hell told you to look for greener grass?"

 “Your eyes are the only things betraying you now;
they tell me that you don’t love me anymore.”

;because you take me for granted.

Thursday, April 2, 2015

"Your task is not to seek for love, but to seek and melt all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."

Beginnings and endings all rolled into one. The season's changing now and its keeps changing. Its a little hard to keep up, there's so much to do and yet, the same story goes, I don't do anything. This semester's being a tough cookie and I'm not too sure if I'm going to pull through. A lot of things that's been happening that's just telling me one thing: move on. I'm going, but there's nowhere to go to.

Moving to a new place and all, it made things all a little harder. Suddenly there's so much new to accept and I'm still slowly dragging my feet along from the past. 

This place housed too many of my years here in Subang, and all the years that I spent making questionable decisions and collecting experiences along with heartbreak. Its a whole different type of letting go process, moving house is. Looking back, I've moved from house to house for many times already. This time, though, I'm more aware of the nostalgia than ever. But then again, I've never been one for letting go old, comfortable things. 

This.. recognize this from the side of my blog? Its all old and rusted now, almost 3 years ago it was made. Returned and kept aside, now finally thrown away. I'm immortalizing those memories with this post. 

This phone, hahaha. I think I used it all the way till form 5. All the friends I've made with this phone, and all the horrible selfies that I took and the loud clicking sounds that I made when I typed on it. Ahh, those days. 

Distractions are becoming less fun now, I need to good ones to keep me going. :/ Assignments and tests are just making me sadder. I'm not sure if I'm ready for the next phase yet. I don't think we're ever ready. Pulling myself together piece by piece, still looking for the missing ones. Give me my secrets back.

"We've come a long way from where we began
Oh I'll tell you all about it when I see you again."
-- See You Again, Wiz Khalifa feat. Charlie Puth

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