The WORLD is talking bout this now.

I'm sad. I don't know him, i don't know his songs, but i'm sad. A lil too sad actually. SIGH.

R.I.P Michael Jackson.

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Now. I'm off to camp. GAH. I pray for the best of the best there.

Please God, let me be nice.
Amen.

I go teleport and do.

I've come to realise that in my lack of blogging, i've missed out some events. Lol. For example, the Ballet concert, IBIG Korean Praise and Starwalk. And now that its passed, i don't even feel like blogging about it anymore. For 2 reasons.

1. I have nothing much to say about it.
2. I don't remember. LOL.

So uhh. To summarize it, Ballet was mildly interesting because the tutus were really pretty and i 'think' that they were really good? And i think most ppl already know, but IBIG Korean Praise was AWESOME. Hmm. And Starwalk was just tiring. because i couldn't find any inspriration. And i'm not in the mood to get thinner. YET.

Park Sang Kyu and us :)

Anyway. I got home from school yesterday and checked my phone. The first thing i said when i saw the text was "Something fishy is going on." Haha. It was my dad. He asked us out dinner, or specifically "n v can hang out 2nite, like hv dinner, etc." That's really what the text said. And thats exactly what we did : his version of hanging out.

And when daddy is around, the first thing we do is, EAT DURIAN. I'm not a big fan but once in awhile, it does sound a lil appealing to me. So we ate durian. I've realised on thing about durians, or maybe its just me and my weird taste buds, EVERYTIME you take a new bite, it always taste different. At some point, i was wondering if i was even eating from the same piece. It was VERY weird. =O

OOHH. And while we were standing at the side of the road, there was this man opposite who was, i assume, homeless, staring at us eat, hugging a pole. It was a lil freaky at first, then i kinda felt so bad. But after standing there for like approximately 20 minutes ++, he walked off. I waved at him, but his back was facing me already.

AFTER the durian, we went for dinner. DINNER! Ahh. So fat. Ngah choi kai, as sayang always calls it. Hees. We were so full after, we walked on that creepy malay pasar malam thing in town, i think it has a specific name, i just don't know it. BLAH BLAH BLAH. Came home. :)

School's back to being tiring. I don't want to do homework! Hmph.

Okay. Let's move backwards. On Friday, last friday, my sister and i were just chilling with out labtop and screamed our head off at the stoopid, fake, creepy girl ghost person. And suddenly, this loud siren came on. I don't remember exactly what it says but the point is, they wanted to fog the place. Aiish. Potong stim betul. I was just getting comfy. So we had to get out and took our hamsters with us. Initially, we were just sitting at the basketball court and then they started to come nearer. Mummy decided to walk out. Bringing a very unwilling Jill with her. Cos Jill's lazy like that. HAHA.

Joan with Mango and I'm holding Junior.

Yays, a long post that nobody's gonna read, finally.

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You're standing here acting like i never existed.

Shit happens.

I need a life. Somebody give it back to me.

Yes, life is boring. SO BORING. But now it's going to get busy. I don't like busy really. Busy gives me ALOT of pimples.

Now, let me rant a lil first.
Everyone's going through a hard time. The world does not revolve around you alone. I get depressed. I get tired. But i never complain. Nobody's gonna do everything for you. As long as i'm around anyway. You've got hands, you've got legs, you've got brains. Do it yourself. I'm always so tired of doing things for ppl. But the thing is, i never get to say anything about it. I may complain once or twice, but that's it. Just. enough. Nobody else knows what you're going through. Don't expect sympathy from me. You're not getting any. Empathy? Maybe. I must sound like a total bitch now, but frankly, i don't care. You may think that you go through a lot or problems and all the shit in the world, but everyone does. EVERYONE.

Okay. I'm done.

Now, back to my boring life. IU day's on it's way. Approximately one month from now. Lots to do. Let me rephrase that. Lots of i-don't-want-to-do-stuff to do. -.-

If we try
we shall see
in this bliss
we cannot feel
fear or dread
we stop existing and
stop living.

DAMN.

It was such lame attempt to pass AddMath.
But i did.
WHY DID I?!
AISHHHHHHHHH. SO DEPRESSING.
Now i can't drop it. -.-
I feel even more suicidal now.
I don't want to go through it again.

Somebody save me.

Our class is so amusing, maybe because i've never been in a class with ppl who actually really FAIL. This is new.

No. of ppl who passed : 13
No. of ppl who failed : 19

Wow.

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During BM..

"APA? 59? Kesiannya."

So hilarious. She said that to everyone who got 59. ONLY the one's who got 59. Dunno why though.

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The sun shut down and decided not to shine no more.
In my world at least.

Know what?

Omg, i'm back in Ipoh and currently suffering from a panic attack. SCHOOL. Schoooooool. Schollllllllllllllll. Ssssssscccchhhhhoooollllll. School.

Sighss. I haven't done any of my "holiday homework" yet. Eek. Gah. I really don't wanna go back to school.

School = no sleep = more addmath = more stress = more pimples = more pain equals to a dead Jill.

AND our NIE is not done and not going to be done anytime soon either. -.- AHH. I'm so tired. Mentally. I must change. CHANGEEE!

Byebye.

This is gonna be really fast and short because it's currently 2.30 and i have to bathe. =p

We hung out with Jess cos she was off for 2 days and she came over. So daddy cooked dinner. Awesome stuff. *smiles*


Then on the next day, we went to uhh. Tropicana City. New mall. Uh. I got nothing to say about it. Then we had dinner with uncle. Then we went to This other uncle's house just to hang out. And his house was.. big. With a lot of mirrors. And as usual, this is wat we did. And that's the uncle's head in the pic.


And we came home, gave daddy his be-earlied father's day present. YAY.


From left : Me, Jess, Daddy, Joan, Cammie.

End of story.

I'm sure.

Shit happens.

Its happening me alot.

ALOT.

Dammit.

Nothing.

So. Uhh. Yesterday we went to Sunway to meet up with Sum who was there 3 days in a row (so sorry, HAHA). There is absolutely nothing to do because everything is so.. expensive. We ended up just walking around and he must've been totally bored. LOL.

"We are glad that you're not enjoying this really because that makes you not gay but i do feel slightly bad."




And then today we went to 1u and erm. WALKED. ALOT. painful feet. Yeah. Bought some funny pants. I wud like elaborate except i have nothing to say and other things to do. This thing's called YOUTUBE.

And then there's this.

:)

KL

So. I've been in KL on my own for the past 2 days. It wasn't bad, it wasn't all that good.

This place is scary. Like.. scary. I'm eating too much. Somebody please stop me, i beg of you.

Anyway. I've only been to Sunway Pyramid so far and i have only 2 things to say.

1. ZAC EFRON dghdfkjbnfbnkjmfb
2. The fashion here has deteriorated. SIGHS.

So umm. My dad made his awesome food again and invited his cousin over. Some uncle from Aussie, he has an accent. And he has pretty kids. AND he brought over this really awesome cheese cake.

I am not going to try to name them cos firstly, i can barely remember all their names, and lastly, i don't know how to spell their names.

So we umm. Took pictures with him. It was.. awkward. LOL.

Uncle Ron's his name. =]

SORRY.

Ooohh. I just set off the house's alarm. HAHA.

It gave me a slight heart attack but it was so soft. Well, gee i'm sorry. I'm not used to having alarms in the house. But KL's a pretty scary place. Alarms are totally fine with me.

It was so soft outside, maybe its blasting loud in their room cos Arnie came out like real fast. =p

Oops. Sorry.

"Sorry sorry sorry sorry, I I I first
For you for you for you, I fell."

NOT. *huge SIGH*

It's okay.

This is suicide. WHY do i always end up doing things like this?

SIGHS.

When the pain is gone.

Okay. So i've decided to blog again. =] It's hols after all. Which only means.. more pics? Haha.

I'm going to blog about absolutely random stuff that most ppl would find absolutely absurd. There'll be approximately 2-3 ppl that's understand. To those who do, YAY. Feel free to comment on anything i type. :)

I've passed that phase and i'm terribly sorry. But its over now. Forgive me.

Off to KL soon. I can only pray for the best there. Sighs.

K-pop, i'll miss you.

L.O.V.E

I know i'm supposed to be blogging. But today, i have a VERY good reason : HIM.

KANG DAESUNG!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DAESUNG!

Yeah, you know i love you. <3

I will unofficially disappear.

*poof*

anyeong!

Broken tradition.

Phantom of the Opera. No comment. Lol. I dunno what to say, its just.. like that la.

OH WELL. 4 years.

Change.

is.

good.

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Today. SIGHS.

1. I finally finished my oral which i have memorized everyday for 2 weeks straight just to forget half of it when i was actually speaking. =.=

2. Now there's BM lisan. That one is a definite phail.

3. Mid year is coming sooo fast.

4. I'm scared.

5. I'm tired.

So anyway. Went for tuition. He came half an hour late. And then when class ended, he wrote a memo for me. It goes like this :

"Pls pray for Madam Wong Siew Yeen (Mr. Alex Wong's wife). She just gone through the back bone operation (slip disc). Pls pray for speedy recovery and God healing onto her left leg. Cause left led got no strength. Pray for God mercy on my son, David Wong cause mummy cannot take care of him."

All i could do was smile and wished he feels better when he wrote it. When i got home and read it again, tears filled my eyes. SIGHS. I wish there was more i could do than pray. But i guess for now, it's the best anyone can do.

OHHH. The memo's not for me la. Its for me to pass it to my church's pastor because Mr. Alex knows that our church has prayer meetings and asked me to pass the note for prayers.

AHH. My baby's hair SO CUTE. I'm gonna tie my hair like this from now on. LOL.

I believe in miracles.

So wrong.

Today was a blog-worthy day. And therefore, here i am. Lol.

Oh well. For the first time, school on Saturday was actually OKAY. Just okay. The fact that its a Saturday brings it down a lil.

School was.. liberating.

HAHA. Yeah well. Just.. free. So it was a good start to my day. Towards the end though, i'm not too sure. Sigh.

Went to church after school and for the first time in a long long time, we played games. Lol. I just realised there's a lot of firsts-in-a-long-time-things that happened today. It was.. bleh. Haha. No lah. The games were fine. Got us warmed up for p&w. && the highlight of the service was that P&W was actually more ALIVE since a long long time. It felt good. Too bad i had to leave early.

So. Went to ACS. For the first time in a long time (i'm not sure there was actually already a first time or not) and did nothing. NOTHING. I just stood around the whole 3 hours. Walked here and there staring at ppl staring back at me because they think i'm weird and alone and wotnot.

Too bad no pics and probably won't have any at all. =

AND. I saw a lot of ppl i haven't seen in a long long time. I don't even know if i'm supposed to feel good about things like that. *slaps self* Sighs.

WSGESRHJSFMNLTNF>NGNLEJMDBFMLBNMLDMLNFNLMFNDLMCONR.

ISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. OKAY.

Now i'm prepared for 2moro.

No use, i give up.

Gone.

I've decided to stop blogging for awhile. No specific reason.

Just. stop.

For awhile.

I will get back i suppose. When my blogging-ness comes back to me.

After mid year, during hols maybe? I just don't have time to actually sit here and type out my thoughts for now. And if i actually did, this blog will end up very mobid.

Or maybe i'll just go back to my other blog which noone reads for now. I miss it. :)

Until then..

My band + Bong Ajumma says GOODBYE.

It's currently 12.10. Sorry its late but..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JOEVY!

My whole post shall be pink today.

<3

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During moral..

"What did she do?"
"I think she chopped off his dong dong."
"Did she put salt?"

Hahaha. Now i'm off to drown myself in AddMath and a million other non-finished homework. Sigh. Procrastination has gotten the best of me.

Forever you're my girl.

Saturday. BLAH. I woke up at 6 freakin 45. Reached school at 7 freakin 45 when the thing starts at 9 freakin o' clock. Bla bla bla. I dunno. For the first time in my life, i was on stage during worship. Lol. Do LCD. And i noticed one thing, when i was up there, i had no idea whether the worship was good or not. Cos all the faces staring at me had the same expression : NONE.

And i just don't understand. How can ppl still not know how to do roll call and dismissal? We'e done it SO MANY TIMES. But still, everytime we do it, i'll still here ppl going "Say up. Say up again." or "Look to the left." or "Only first row raise your hands." We've repeated it and repeated it. Takkan after 2 weeks then forget already right? Maybe you need some 'help' then. This is totally irrelevent but its so just so annoying. I mean, even when i was a new member, after doing it twice, you just automatically remember it, right? Apparently not.

Forget it. So after the meeting ended and my mum was coming late. And ezz left.

*silence*

Suddenly, text arrives. "T.T SORRRYY" (lol at my deskmate)

*look for car, or more like PRETEND to look for car*

*TaeYang's 'Look at me only' blasting in my ears*

*silence*

*silence*

and more *silence*

"BYE."

"Bye."

I'm sorry its still so awkward. But this was much better than a few months ago. Praise the Lord!

Sunday. Was forced to go to church. The drumming ppl were so cool though. And the main dude looked like Justin Timberlake. Haha. The sermon was exceptionally looong :

I have a friend who doesn't tell me anything.

*ahemahem*

If you're my friend, I'll tell you everything.

L to R : Gurchi a.k.a the church leader that texts me every Saturday morning at 8 to remind me to go to church, Me, Joan, Kristal.

And lastly, I always knew he was sexy but not THIS sexy. *huge grin*

Whee. I'm back. I'm just sooo lazy nowadays, i don't blog. But i dont usually get the chance to because something will sure come up. And today, i'm so lazy so i wanna type in broken english. For once, i must not care. So just ignore all the random grammar mistakes. 

School's been really long these days. Everyday its just ADD MATH ADD MATH ADD MATH. 

During BI, do add math. During BM, do add math. During Bio, do add math. I practically spent the past 2 days doing add math and then smacking myself in the head for not seeing where the stupid point is or NOT READING THE QUESTION. That is one of my main HUGE reason why i keep failing my papers. =.=

Forget about school. Despite how i do not have anything else happening except school. Ooohh. Today i went for Physics tuition and it was so scary i tell you. There was sooo many ppl there and there were a few guys standing at the table so i cudnt go and pay. Anyway. After paying.. 

"So where's the class?"

*points to the class at the back*

*deskmate and i turn back to look* 

and we both had the same face on :

(O.O)

The class was like.. FULL. OF. PPL. Extremely scary looking. And then we both turned around to look at the girl and she was like "No, not now. Afterwards." Gosh i was like so scared. After standing around for awhile, the class emptied out. And when we went in, only about 15++ ppl were in it. Thank God. I never thought i'd be so scared to see so many unknown ppl. LOL. 

Does this mean i somewhat know myself better now? not. 

You see. Everyday there are these lil small things that reminds me that i HAVE TO be a NICER person. Today at Chem..

"Just now i was asking ppl how to do the experiment, right. And then the RCL said 'you're so friendly, not like them."

WHAT? WHY? I'M NOT UNFRIENDLY. 

Okay. That was me being in denial. But then again, i'm sure its not THAT bad right? wrong. 

Aishhhhh. These small things that doesn't bother the rest of "them" actually bothers me. Blehh. I need to pray. 

Oops. I didn't realise the post got so long. OOOHHH. My aural. Gah. Its gonna be so terrible. 

Did you know that Elvis Presley died while sitting on the toilet bowl, naked, reading newspaper? Exactly. 

You're my lollipop.