24th December.

Candlelight service at church, it was uhh.. an interesting experience. There's nowhere I'd rather be than in the house of God during Christmas.

25th December.

As per usual, Christmas dinner at Daddy's with Uncle Wai Keong and family. Roasted chicken and potato salad for dinner. Present exchanging after that and I got this huge frame, supposedly from daddy, but aunty bought it.

 Sisters in the house! 

Before that, 

Christmas date with heart big teddy bears and heart shaped meat. 

26th December. 

And after that, Boxing Day at Bukit Tinggi.

It was nice and cold and all we did was walk around, throw pop pop, drink pina colada.

❤❤❤

This was Christmas for me. 

10th December 2013.

다시 시작했다. 

어떻게. 난.. 남자친구 생겠어.ㅎㅎ

행복하고, 짜증하고, 웃고, 울고, 많이 먹고, 많이 못 자고 . 이런 사랑입니다. 사람들이 어떤 말을더, 난 상관없어. 나도 잘 몰라는데, 그냥할거야. 잠시라도, 난 사랑 했어요. 

이 남자가, 어린 이더라도, 날 지켜 줄 수 있어. 잠시라도, 이 남자가 날 사랑할 수 있어. 

해볼라고. 해볼게요.

❤

Super Show 5 Malaysia

Super Show 5 Malaysia
Date : 23 November 2013
Venue : Putra Indoor Stadium, Bukit Jalil

And of course, I went with my best ELF companion. Selca before concert is a must. New lightsticks!

The opening is more.. tech savvy this time around, loving the change.

Kyochon chicken, probably doing some promotion before opening up at 1U and having seen these gorgeous live size cutouts, how could I not stand under the scorching sun to line up to take a picture with them? The sun that day was no joke. NO JOKE. 

The Sapphire Blue ocean. Ahhh, proud ELF. 

All the smiles they have on their faces, the kind of love they have for the stage and the fans and for each other. I've seen 4 concerts so far, and they've all always put a huge smile on my face and a warm fuzzy feeling in my stomach everytime I walk out of the stadium. I'm not going to talk much about the concert itself because.. honestly I may not remember much about it anymore because its been too long, but I remember what I felt. 

HOWEVER! I cannot not mention this. But Heechul, omg, my Heechul. Ahhh, so glad to see him. He's really changed over time and I'm glad I stuck around this long in this fandom because it was all worth it. Ahhh, the beautiful smile of his, the shiny, flippy red hair, the skinny legs and the big shirts, the screaming and the terrible dancing, I've missed it all. 

This beautiful man. I hope he finds love and joy. Haha, omg I sound a little cray cray but I do love him and I want the best for him.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ 

Fell from the sky.

Sometimes we gotta remind ourselves, that we cannot be someone's everything.
And that perhaps, we shouldn't want to be either.
Because enough is never just enough. 

Btw, no, this is not a message to anyone specific out there. It doesn't relate to anyone, but me.

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I hope by the time the next update comes along, it would be about how grateful I am that finals is finally over and it will be about happy things. Lots and lots of happy things.
 

10 hours to go. 

Hang in there.

Rainy season.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people
won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
Marianne Williamson

Each other.

When we see each other, we automatically hug each other. 

When we walk together, we automatically reach for each other. 

When we part, we automatically think of each other. 

Dreams. 

"He who walks with the wise is wise."

Sundown Music Festival Asia 2013 @ Gold Coast Morib

Okay, this was a new experience, a pretty good one at that. The beach was.. not that dirty when we got there, but it was pretty trashed by the time we left. It was a 2 day event, but I only went for one night, because church comes first :D We left Subang at 8-ish and reached at almost 11. Haha. Damn GPS. Anyhow, I really enjoyed the whole car ride despite being a little burnt out from a real long Friday. 

"We gon' go hard and get there,
and when we get there we gon' go harder."
-Moe

The crowd was.. meh, so-so, I was a little out of it at first until we went to the other side of the crowd and had this entire area to ourselves, then we just kinda lost it. We ran around, splashed each other a little, jumped and danced. Ahh, it feels like it was yesterday. I had actual muscle pain from that little running we did. :/ 

Yes, apparently I hang out with some topless dark skinned guys. Great people. ♥♥♥

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After that, it was back to uni, back to the continuously building stress and slight fear. But! 

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear
but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” (2 Timothy 1:7)

I will get through this. It will all be worth it in the end, right?

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So, in the occasion of that one-day public holiday that we had and my random moodiness stemmed from my bestfriend ditching me in uni for the chick he has a crush on, my sister let me crash her 'date'. Bwahaha. Oops? 

We ate some Japanese food, ate A LOT of interesting flavored ice-cream and...danced a little. 

Salted gula melaka, Guinness, Nutella, Mango, French Toast. :D  

I like this, I do. But why does it always have to end that way. We could be great friends, we have fun together, we can talk, we can laugh, we understand, we love freely, why should we settle for something less? 내가좋아하는 오빠들; 잃고 싶지 않아. ᅲᅲ

And life decides to troll a little more and there, we bumped into a super super old childhood friend. Memory is a pretty amazing thing, who knew we would still remember each other since we knew each other at the young age of 7/8. Please ignore my #awkward arm. Who knows what life brings sometimes? 

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A day or two after that, mummy came to visit again and we went to Petaling Street to get more of the Halloween decorations and... 

So we tried on some of the stuff. The spiders were actually really cute. I don't think i'll get to celebrate Halloween this year. Damn you, finals.

Then we proceeded to eat some awesome dinner, it felt like eternity since I last had steamed fish and salted egg crab, courtesy of mummy's suppliers. I'm thinking I really need to improve my uhmm "socializing with older people" skills. :/ how else will I be able to step into the marketplace next time.

Yesterday, we celebrated my sister's so called belated 22nd (again) and... did weird things. Gawd, what a night. I think I did achieve what I wanted that night. That's it, now its time to move on. I did mean all those things I said, I'm glad we're all just.. fine.

Looking at my previous posts since I snapped out of my non-studying period and finally trying to get a life, I feel like I've come far. There's a lot of stuff going on, most times, its hard just to find a day for myself. I cannot begin to explain how blessed I feel, from making new friends, finding old friends, and connecting again with friends that were always there. (Shoutout to my bestest bestest gf EZZIE because I MISS YOU) 

"An introduction to a new relationship is a new season."

What my CG leader said, I can really feel it coming true for me now. Ahh, the power of prophecy. She said that she feels that now is the beginning of a new season, a season to go out even further and to stretch our faith even more. That phase I was in, I'd really like to get out of it already and despite what everyone may say, I think that this is a God given opportunity for me to realise myself again and become a better person. I'm taking the good and the bad and mould it all together until it becomes something new. 화이팅!

Theme for the 3rd quarter of 2013 : BOLD

Excuse the long post, I'm obviously procrastinating from studying.

There is an answer, you just don't want to accept it;
and the answer is 'No'.

"I don't care, I love it"

I've come to realise that people just.. Generally don't care about things. Or maybe the people that I've come across. They just don't. And somehow or rather, I've become a little like them. Just don't care. There's no point talking about it, no point thinking about it, no point having an opinion about it. Because generally, people also don't care what you think about things.

Don't they?

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 Arthur's day.

The Wanted!

OMG Nathan waved at me! I swear he did! I was just looking at his general direction, tryna see what weird things he was doing on stage, then he just suddenly stood and stared into the crowd. There was a direct space between him and me, in between all the hands. And when he looked at my general direction, everyone else was looking at someone else, so I waved at him. And then he looked like he  suddenly snapped out of the trance that he was in and waved back at me. Bwahahahahaha. Yeah, you all can think i was just hallucinating or he might have been waving at someone else, but I know he waved at me.
Our eyes met. ♥♥♥♥♥

They look so good, with their accents and all. Ahh. Starstruck. 

The All American Rejects!

OMG they sang songs like Gives You Hell and Dirty Little Secret, I felt like I was living through my teenage-hood all over again. They wrote really great songs, dayummm. I think its really something to remember, to be able to watch The All American Rejects perform, despite me not being a totally huge fan.

Five for Fighting! 

Legends, I tell you. Honestly, I had no idea what songs they were singing half the time, of course, they were the most famous for Superman, and then.. the rest of the performance, everybody was just standing around cheering occasionally. But I'm glad I got to see them once in my life. :D

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Sometime after that, went on a tea-date with Omar :) And then watched some weirdo movie where people just float in space and bad things happen one after the other.

Thanks for the "lovely" pictures. Hehe. 

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Sometime before that, my sister and I went to help out a friend film an advertisement for her assignment. That was a lot of fun too. Strangers who become friends who become strangers again.

We ate ice cream, ate french crepe, strolled in the rain, went window shopping, took crazy pictures. Twas' a good day. 

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There's more but I think this post is way too long already.
Finals is coming up, I am freaking out and all but let's just get this over with, shall we?

Sweet dreams.

We are meant to be
another time
another life
possibly
probably
you would be mine

"He's a fool, you're just as well"

Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me

And here's all your lies
You can't look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well

When you see my face
Hope it gives you hell

When you walk my way
Hope it gives you hell 

All American Rejects!

Arthur's day update..

coming soon.

"The Cure"

"My mum always says opposites attract."

"That's magnets, we're people."

It feels like so much has happened and nothing has happened at the same time. Quick update. 

I've been living 4 hours of sleep a day, sleeping at all the wrong times, finishing up assignments last minute and it still doesn't seem to end. Have I been slacking? Not exactly, I'm just.. procrastinating. I've been really strange lately. Its like I'd say 'yes' to everything for a week, then I'll say 'no' to everything for the next. :/ #confused

So.. What happened? Uhm. 

I went to the We Love Asia Concert 2.0. And I've witnessed Pitbull live (or not live, I'm not sure) and I spent the whole night jumping around, covered in sweat and smoke. So much fun. 

Then.. we went for MTV World Stage, with EXO and Far East Movement and Robin Thicke. It was a pretty good night, despite the drizzle earlier in the night and the crazy fans. Maybe cause it was less hot and less people sticking to me, it was quite spacey. :D 

Then...  PARTAYYY~ new friends, old friends, acquaintances who eventually return to being strangers.

Then.. Back to being a student. Haihhh. Its been exhausting but I think the fight's not over yet. Finals will be approaching. I'm finding it so hard to be able to manage my time between me-time,sleep,  school, church, friends who are near and friends who are far. I'm sorry, I'm really busy and I'm trying my best. :/ Don't people realize that they're not the only ones having a hard time? Otherwise, I've been sacrificing a lot of the "fun times" just to get a little more sleep. My face is suffering, eye bags and dark eye circles are getting worse. 

Finally, it was my sister's birthday. 

I'm sorry I couldn't do more, it wasn't exactly all last minute. :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ❥❥❥❥❥ xoxo

So we went to 노래방, to celebrate. Big thanks to Zhan Wei for spending the whole day with me. Heh. I think he's the only so far willing to spend so much time with me. I see him 5 days a week, 5 hours a day. Or more. Lol.

  

I realised we were only ever apart for one birthday, that was last year. One birthday is enough, it shall not happen again! Cause my birthday without you was terrible, not sure if yours was though, heh. Thank you for always being there for me, for being my support, for being my confidant, for being my sister. Thank you for being born 2 years earlier than I was, thank God for putting us together. I love you!

I feel blessed now, after reflecting on the past 2 weeks. 

Thank you, God. 

Off to do assignments again now~

Tied up.

Picture by : this. I think this is a great experiment, all kinds of scary, all kinds of fun, a story worth telling in the future. Too bad I don't think I'd ever be able to experiment things like this with anyone. No one willing. :/

I keep feeling like hugging people. Like.. I'm suffering from hug-deficit for the past two weeks. Lol.

"I could offer you a warm embrace

To make you feel my love."

"You found me."

It feels like I've lost my voice.

I have no idea what I believe in anymore. I don't even remember who I used to be, how I used to be, what I used to be. What is this nonsense identity crisis I'm in the midst of? I barely have any opinions, its like I don't have a thought on anything at all. If it happens, it happens. I don't bother justifying things anymore, I don't bother evaluating things anymore, I don't remember the last time I judged something/someone. And I know, that is not a bad thing, I don't judge, I like that about myself. But I'm beginning to blur out the line between what's good and bad, what's right or wrong. I'm losing touch of what I live my life by. 

Its like I'm being just whoever the people around me thinks I am. It change accordingly, just to.. adapt. I don't remember how I used to think before. I hear all these strange voices in my head that don't belong to me.

Things are only valuable when they're rare. And now I'm becoming almost like everything else out there in the world, any kind of person, any kind of girl. Average? Oh-so-average. 

I feel like I don't think anymore. Gone are the days when I actually over-think things. Is it too early to say that I kinda miss that feeling? I feel like I need to have told this big, long, thick rope to hold my brains together, to get my mind to function again. If I kinda squish my brain up, maybe squeeze some of the juice out, to make it all soft and moist, will I begin to think deeper thoughts?

Days and days and more days past. I don't even notice. Its a strange kind of emptiness. Not the kind stemmed from being alone too long, it feels like it comes from being quiet amongst people too much.

I'm becoming dumb. 

!!!

Read THIS!!!

"I took someone else’s values and swapped them for mine, rather than redefine my values to meet my new view of myself. This laziness was my undoing. It’s why you must always consider the source of any advice you get before you adopt it. I was stupid. Later on, I realized what might’ve worked for them sure as shit didn’t work for me. I’m no good at being nice. Hell, I don’t even believe in niceness. I think it’s a lie. This is why you gotta do you. Nothing else will work but your truth.

But how do you “do you” when what you’re doing isn’t working? Another good question.

The old saying, “Nice guys finish last,” is somewhat misunderstood.

The saying should be: “Nice guys let others finish first.”

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WHAT AM I DOING. 

How can this article relate so much. Uhg, life.

One more time.

Bonding activity 101: Go to Genting in the middle of the night and freeze our butts off. 

Just the other day, a not-so impromptu plan to Genting, after some dancing and Jagger-bombs in Vertigo. Which also explains why I was wearing a skirt.

Group shot! There's so much love in this picture. My favourite one yet. :D

It was so cold, what we actually did there, was eat McD, walk around and then stand outside in the cold all just hugging each other because it was so cold, took some pictures, laughed, get stared at weirdly, went home when the sun rose.

 And then they were trying to portray with it was like to kidnap me, I wouldn't say they were trying to kidnap me because they couldn't even carry me. LOL. Yes, I know. I'm still trying to lose some of that unwelcomed weight gained. :/

With Mel, whom I really wish does not leave but would still want her to leave so she can fulfill her dreams at HKU. I couldn't open my eyes fully because the wind was blowing in my face.

Selca time! When the sun rose and the temperature lower. We're actually all pretty tired here, but thankfully, it doesn't show.

I've learnt a lot and I've seen many admirable characteristics so far that I'll definitely put in my list of things I should learn to be a better person. Last picture to commemorate Omar who wasn't there, I really wish you were.

사랑한다 친구 ♥♥♥

Invisible.

"Don't turn your back on me, 
I won't be ignored." 

The new people that step foot into my life does not over right the people who were already in my life.