Hello. 3 days of school. Whole lot of results. And nothing to say about it. Suprisingly, i don't feel anything about my results because i didn't actually expect anything in the first place. Although i do feel like hitting myself on the head a million times for making the STUPIDEST mistakes of all mankind. Blehhhh. Takpe. It's done.

People say : "Don't expect and you won't hurt."
And some other ppl say : "Have high expectations, that way you will push yourself further."
So which exactly am i suppose to follow?

Moving on. I've been listening to Lee Hom's new album. Its been out for awhile, in my comp for quite some time, but never heard. So i finally decided to and well, it's.. different.

His music is still awesome.
His vocals are still awesome.
His lyrics are still even more awesome.
He just choose a different way to express it.
A weirder way. But still good.

It went from "Kiss goodbye" to "What's up with rock?" Drastic change, hard to adapt to for now. But i'm already getting used to it. Glad to know that i still am a Lee Hom fan. Of his songs anyway. Lyrics are awesome.

"How many question marks can fit into two hearts?"
or
"No matter how many tomorrow it takes, forever starts now."

Hmm. Looks kinda weird now. But i assure you, it sounds sooo much better in mandrin. (:

Now. Some Lee Hom spam if you don't mind. Hee.

The Handsome.


The Sexy. LOL.

The Dorky.

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DC Camp 09'. My group presenting Task 2 if i'm not mistaken. Lol at Nicky. Present also must stand until like that.

Now. Back to my VIP self. HEART Campaign. <3


Lastly..

SUPPORT EARTH HOUR! I'm probably gonna end up sitting on the couch staring into space in the dark for one hour. Just because Mother Earth needs us. Whee. Make a difference.

I suddenly understand the shapes of the clouds.

You the leader.

I'm finally back from camp. I STILL don't feel good and i don't feel bad. But i'm glad to say that i think there's been some kinda change in me? 

No. 1 fact ppl just HAVE TO know about me : 

NEVER. EVER. touch my head unless i give you permission to, which is unlikely. I become very.. inhuman. This applies to everyone except SOME certain ppl and there's really not many out there :)

The camp was.. good. Just not fun. But still good anyway. It requires a whole lot of mental strength and thinking skills. Which i obviously don't have. But the one thing i realised, no matter how much i don't like talking in front of ppl or speaking public-ly, i can actually do it. Yes, my hands will shake and i get really jumpy before i go up, but right after i stand there, i don't feel anything anymore. I'm not even sure if that's good or bad. 

We had lotsa tasks to do. Mostly involving business, marketing, finance, stock market, lawsuits, hospitals and etc. All of them were pretty hard and we just kept making random stupid mistakes and the worst part is waking up at 5 something to get all of the stuff done. My face, tak boleh save dah. 

My group name : Anglicisme (which most ppl had a hard time pronouncing, eg : my group leader) LOL. It means leader in French. All of the sermons are about leadership. Being a leader is both easy and hard. Seriously. If i were given a choice, i would never choose to lead. But since we were all choosen, there's actually no choice. FINE. 

GO ANGLICISME! :) 

I suppose overall, the camp was considerably awesome. I don't know how or why i always give the impression of being cold. I'm not REALLY. I just can't show it. Sorry lah, i was born like this. Either way, i probably will start making an effort now. 

Autographs and wishes : See those bananas up there, from Fredson. It say "Banana good for health." And Ben Ooi, that big J and squigly line that i suppose shud be my name althoug i'm still not sure. And the rest, noone needs to know. Hee. 

LOL. The biggest one : "Hi chilly (JOSIAH), random smiley faces. And there's this other one that says "Don't belagak la.". And from Ben 10, "Woohoo!" HAHA. From Nicolas (your best groupmate) that is really what he wrote, not me : "Me rock! YAY! You are fantastic REALLY." 

Weird, nice ppl. 

More random pics with me looking terrible from camp coming soon. 

TO KRISTAL : My theories are ALWAYS right. again. Best of luck in handling ALL these issues. again. 

i miss him. 

ah, i hate this so much. 

stoopid fella. 

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Decided not to go to KL. Waste my time, go there become kuli only. No need. I'm sorry to say that i cud care less that you're moving and i have no intentions on going down for 2 days just to hep you carry and move stuff around. This is not me being mean. This is me being realistic. And maybe a lil sarcastic. 

Come and go.

HOLIDAY! My best friend, you finally came. I missed you. =/

2 hours of sleep everyday. No internet. No TOP. No Jun Pyo. No BigBang. No TV. No rest. Just books. Its all over and i actually don't feel any better. I can say that i've tried my best DOING THE PAPERS but i didn't even try STUDYING. In other words, FAIL.

Right now. I have dark circles and eyebags worse than SeungRi's.

I know this is a lil late but..

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL SPM-ers, regardless how many a's you got!

I actually have nothing much to blog about since this whole week was all exams and i bet nobody wants to know bout MY exams; i've got nothing to say anyway.

Gah, DC in 2 days. And this is what i plan to do.

1. SLEEP FOR THE NEXT 12 HOURS.
2. Attempt to fix my face (those who see me everyday will undertsand)
3. Get back to YOUTUBE asap!
4. Get thinner. (everytime exams come, i get fatter. Reason : i eat every single minute i study. even with the stress, i still gain weight. weird, isnt it?)

So now i'm gonna head off to finish all the things in my list. Maybe when i come back, DC will be over and i'll be somewhat changed.

"A man's word is his bond."

Sports day is finally over. I feel like I need to get away from marching and the field for a long long time.

Just as I hope to get back to my life, exams come along. Right after sports day, there's exams pulak. Gah. I'm so tired, I can't even focus for more than 10 minutes. Study you say? IMPOSSIBLE.

Okay. Back to sports day. As expected, we didn't win. I'm more happy for nightingale than sad for gb, I'm sorry. Screamed half the time. Won quarter of a cup of milo from winning a bet. Seriously, never go against my observation skills. Although none of these skills are applied in any of my science subjects. Sighss.

Just signed up for camp. I'm still quite freaked out about it, but there's no turning back now.

Before I go on a mini hiatus (like everyone else), in church..

Be a PIG, die to self.

Must be addicted to studying. And kpop. (:

I share the same birthday as Lee Hyori.

I'm not being random. I'm just BoF deprived.

):

Dye.

Some random pic taken after the Peace Forum. And yes, i went to a PEACE Forum. Well. Technically, i was only there for.. 15 mins ++ And that's enough of world peace for me. I'm sorry all the kids in Africa and wherever, i'll pray for you? =/ 

STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. Bye bye. 

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HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY, JO! 

ilu <3 

So does JaeJoong. 

Here it is.

THE TAG. Just another reason to pic spam. 

1. Provide pictures and the names of 3 people.

2. Label which you would Marry, Fuck, and Kill.

3. Comment to this and I will give you 3 people, only if you ask in the cbox though since half the world has already done this hee

4. Post this meme with your answers.

JILL HEATHER- Choi Seunghyun, Kim Sang Bum, Kang Daesung

As predicted.. 

Marry : Choi Seung Hyun <3 Kinda obvious, isn't it? 

Fcuk : Kim Sang Bum. Nobody needs a reason to do him :) 

Kill : Gawd, i'm so sorry DaeSung. When you're in heaven, i hope you meet my soon-to-be-dead-friend, Joanna Lee.

Don't smile at me like that, you're breaking my heart. Iloveyousomuch. Really. 

Notice all the flowers? I just had to marry the most bad-ass one. ;)

No really, i'm not emo.

HAHAHAHA. I'm sorry, thats just about all i can do.

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Spending a whole night in the dark and losing everything i ever worked for in ONE day.

Not bad.

Uhhh. I cannot comprehend how much i want to cry right now.

Whatever right?

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I should probably always type more but i need to go like.. drown in my sorrows for a moment. Maybe the next post wud be just a lil more.. than this.

MAYBE.

Although. I just went blog-hopping (as Ez calls it), and i was thinking. Isn't it nice to know someone out there it thinking bout you? Preferably korean.

I'm not sorry.

Today's my 'mean day'.

Payback? Maybe.

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"EEEII! *points at me* YOU! Eh, *taps shoulder of another person* you know who she is ah?"

"Hello Jill."

That was sooo awkward. Lol. One so loud, suddenly one so.. formal.

Sports Day at ACS is very astounding and really traumatizing. They run. Very fast. Lol. Its probably normal and im just not used to it. But seriously. SO FAST. Compared to someone as slow as me. Haha.

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SO CUTE! *giggles*

Nobody shud know what i'm talking about. And this is not korean. Unfortunately.

No questions asked, no lies told.

My white white heart.

I wonder what that means in literature form.

Perhaps its not too late for a valentine pic? :)

Today's sports practice nearly killed me. And my prediction really came through. LOL. ZERO. Wheee. But it started pouring when i was about to go get my 3rd and last zero. Hmm.

My mum came and fetched me to this huge house while i was unaware. And then there i was. Blowing heart shaped balloons for my baby. He just doesn't know it. Yet.

Aish, i'm still dying and i hate doing presentations. ONE REASON : I do not speak in front of a class. I'll die. My lack of public speaking skills will get me nowhere in life. =/

Go away.

Happy Belated Valentine's Day! <3

Yeah, i'm one day late. Lol. Sorry, blog. Uhh well. It was a insignificant day for me.

Sorry for the lack of posts.

I've been busy being busy from being on my way to hell.

I wonder if anyone understands that sentence only reading it once. I had to say it out loud twice to get it right. Maybe thats just becos my brain's been working slower and slower each day.

Uber depressing. And its going to get worse.

No mood to blog cos i need to get back to YouTube. I spend hours EVERYDAY there now and its bugging me so much that i am SO addicted. Gah, stupid Kim Bum.

You don't know what it means.

This is it. For real.

I shall think about 'it' for 10 seconds a day so that i may never forget.

Never did i imagine that going through this again would be this hard.

I shall overcome.

How, you ask?

"I hate this place and the ppl suck so bad."

Denial. That's how.
I finally gave up.

Happy now?

All about me.

Due to my deskmates request, i shall blog. But.

There will no proper update for like.. a long time. Because school is killing me along with everything else that comes with the word S-C-H-O-O-L.

I just want to sleep and MAYBE never wake up. But thats not until i meet..

Lol. I present to you BANG*S. As in there's supposed to be a star in between the g and s.

I'm sorry, i can't even make up a proper sentence now and my face hurts from smiling so much for the past 3 hours. I never knew smiling can be so tiring. Now i shall run off to bed and maybe a lil more smiling time for me. Wheee.

I never knew i'd find a love so true.

Changed?

Woke up late with a msg telling me that she wasnt going for training. I debated with myself on my bed for like.. 13 minutes.

"Should i go?"

"My bed feels so awesome right now."

*Imagines how its like at training*

"But i have to go myself."

"Its not like you've never been b4."

*falls asleep again*

"Ahh. Training."

*gets off bed*

(note that this whole conversation was only between me and myself, LOL)

So. I went for training. ALONE.

It was considerably terrible. Sighssss. I wanna kill you, Wailynn. =/

I feel like crying and smiling at the same time. Lol. Just one sentence says it all :

Life size doraemon pingpong machine.

HAHAHA.
"It" was annoyingly nice i actually slapped myself to stop smiling. "It" looked at me weirdly and then ignored me. Blehh. To clarify, we were getting this one on one coaching from "it". Not the coach. Chehhh. What kinda coach is that. Nvm la. I've realised that they always argue because of me. I feel so bad right now. But i didnt say anything also, not my fault right? =/ SIGHS.

B4 that, i played with that girl la. Ish. She was in this weird mood. Technically, she was in a good mood, but she was playing terribly. Like it was on purpose. The whole hour i told myself "Patience, Jill." And then i turn around with a composed face.

My mum conviniently pointed out that i didn't know anyone there.

"So nobody talked to you today?"

"No."

"So if your friend come only then she talk to you la?"

"Yes."

"Cheh. Go there one whole year already, still don't know anyone there."

"Noo. Its hard for them to talk to me and i also dunno how to talk to them."

"Can talk to me then why cannot talk to them?"

(note that this whole conversation was conducted in cantonese)

"Don't want. They must not know that i speak chinese."

Ish. How nice of her. Blek. So now, i've decided to go on this cantonese-speaking frenzy. I know its actually not possible. I'll probabably only last like.. 10 minutes. Or less. LOL. Doesn't mean i can't try.

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Went to church yesterday. Ps. Angela preached. SIGHS.

*slaps self*

I need to change. ALOT.

ALOT.

Back to school. Depressed immediately.

All over again.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YANN! <3

You're probably never gonna see this but i'm still gonna blog it. =]

Sighsss. I'm back to sleeping at 3 and waking up at 2. I love my sleep. Hee.

Thanks to my mum, i've became absolutely antisocial. I haven't been anywhere but home on the same chair doing the same thing everyday. Sighs.

Bwahaha. I love this shirt. And you can probably already guess why. =]

And i really really really love my lion. No reason its on my head though. LOL.

You're messed up too.

I should probably have a Happy Chinese New Year post like everyone else does but because i'm such a VIP, BigBang always comes first. =]

Today. 090128. 3rd day of chinese new year 2009. 1400. I watched MKMF 2007. At home. Address in confidential. On my 3 seater couch. Holding on the my lion. Squeling my head off since screaming is just a lil inappropriate. Clapping and jumping once in awhile. With my heart pounding like crazy. With a huge smile plastered to my face. Yes, i feel joy.

I.SAW.BIGBANG.on.tv

This post is actually nothing but because my fingers are so happy and a lil too obsessed, they just happen to type this whole post out. LOL.

The stoopid thing is subbed in chinese. CHINESE! We live in M'sia for goodness' sake, MALAY LA PLEASE.

In the meantime, my baby's so hot he has to wear a dinosaur on his head. Yes, you heard me right. A DINOSAUR. My soon-to-be obsession.

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Alright. I'm done. Back to chinese new year. I can't believe i didn't wish my blog a

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

First day. Went to my dad's/grandma's place. It was so boring we had absolutely nothing to do and after a short discussion, we went to JJ. Suprisingly, i didn't meet anyone there. Hmm. Had nothing better to do so watched The Wedding Game. At least thats what i think its called. Had dinner at home and i didn't get to 'lou sang' this year. How miserable can it get. At night. Nothing to do. In conclusion, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. =.=

Second day. Woke up. Did nothing. Eat lunch. Waited till Jess came. Didn't get a single pic with her at all. So sad. I won't even know when's the next time i'll see her. She finally came while we were playing mahjong. Sat for awhile. And after a looong time, we went to Uncle Eric's house in Meru. It was fun? Had to go to the highway, got directions from him and finally reached his house. Sat there for another few hours and watched The Hollow Man. =.= On our way back, we kinda got lost and missed a turn so we took the highway to Simpang Pulai just to take a turn back to Ipoh. LOL. After dinner, again, we had nothing to do. In conclusion, Harry Potter : The Order of Phoenix. *major swt*

Third day. Woke up early. Went to Uncle Turkey's house (no that's not his name, thats just what everyone calls him last time). Sang karaeoke. LOL. We barely knew how to sing the songs there. "Ice ice baby, ice ice baby vanilla~" It was hilarious. Funniest rap song i've sang. Then went to play table tennis. And WaiLynn, you better read this : I watched my DAD serve KL style and the JOE style. But because he's 50, of cos not so yeng la. But still. HE KNOWS. As in seriously. He was trying to teach me but since i suck so bad, all i did was drop the ball a million times. Then i watched my dad and his brother (who happens to be his twin) play. And i assure you, they're GOOD. They'll like.. state player standard but they were not. I'm.. speechless. So anyway. After that we went back for dinner and to Gomei Square? to have supper.

Fourth day aka TODAY. Woke up for breakfast. And umm. Came home? Haha. I miss my bed soooo much. Finally got to go on9. Sighsss. Spent the afternoon BANG!ing. Went to aunt's house. Played mahjong again.

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Tactic used by wives nowadays to keep their divorced-and-had-kids-husband at home and suprisingly, it works :

"If you go out tonight, they (the kids) will go home tonight. If you don't go out, they'll go back 2moro morning."
"Then i won't go out."

Gee. I mean. I know its an easy way to keep him home but using us? No, thanks. I'd stay out of it. We are NOT an ecxuse. But knowing my dad, i was suprised by his answer. I do really appreciate the answer though. I still don't think ppl change that easily.

My uncle's slightly mean and my dad really doesn't use the malaysian slang. Unless he speaks malay or something. Its hard but i shall start doing the same thing now.

My grandma thought TOP, Choi Seung Hyun was my BOYFRIEND for like.. a few seconds. HAHHAHA. happyhappyjoyjoy.

Pics will come later. In the meantime, i'm going back to BANG!

Excuse me for the really long post. Its been days anyway. =]

For you. From TOP.

"Happy Bithday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday ERN HUI~"

And SARANGHAE <3

Okay?

A rose for the birthday girl.

Peace out. xD

The End.

WaiLynn's Lessons when meeting KL *summarized* :-

Lesson no.1 - Eye contact. Passed.

Lesson no. 2 - Smile. Half pass half failed.

Lesson no. 3 - Say HI. Never happened.

Lesson no. 4 - Wait for Mayjet to come so you both can talk to him. She never came.

Lesson no. 5 - Hands around waist. *added today thanks to Shannon Dorothy* This is IMPOSSIBLE.

Heee.

"Jill likes tall and cute guys."

"Shannon likes Irish guys."

"Wailynn likes KL guys."

HAHA.

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You guys suck too.

Pics

From left : JuDee, Me, Joan, Rachel, Thanush, Jenny, 3 of Mirosha's friends from KL, Mirosha.

Whenever you see JuDee, there is one thing that you MUST do : CAMWHORE xD

I was just sitting there listening to all the amusing conversations going on, and JuDee happened to aim her camera at me.

No pics from Becky yet. Probably wont update for the whole week again. But i think i will definitely update 2moro. Hee.

I'm tired.

Very tired. Sighs. School's getting worse and worse. For me only la. Everyone else seems to be enjoying it. A lil too much i must say.

It's been a whole week since my last update. I actually don't remember much on what happened.

Monday. Interact meeting. It was.. terrible. I have absolutely no public speaking skills. I NEVER wanna talk in front of a whole lot of ppl. Its terrifying. Went to the field and marched for the last 10 mins or so. Aish. GB sure won't win wan. *fingers corssed*

Tuesday. LOL. Missed school. Went back to school for n'gale practice though. I practically stood around the whole afternoon. Was too lazy to do anything. Then it started raining so we ended early. I hope it rains EVERYDAY.

Wednesday. Went for marching again. I feel like i've gone 10 shades darker already. So depressing. Headed to tuition after.

"Charming = Handsome = Alex Wong ( teacher's name)"

"blablablaMathblablaEXCUSE MEblablabla"

It was so hilarious. He just kept saying excuse me and i still dont know why but he was probably trying to get our attention although nobody was talking. Hmmm. So weird.

Thursay. Uhh. Can't remember when this happened and i bet it wasnt thursday but..

"What's enviromental friendly air con in BM?"

"Uhh. Pendingin hawa yang berkawan dengan alam sekitar."

Haha. I'm definitely FAILING Bm.

Friday. CF. I didnt even go for it. Bleh. Practice was terrible.

Saturday.

"Oohh. I wanna white my tag too. Do for me."

"Go to hell do yourself."

"I also want, do for me."

"Go to hell do yourself."

*moments later*

"O.O Sooo white!"

Definition of whiting our tags : Take a chalk and rub it over the tags and it becomes super white. LOL. We were a lil too high. Switched classes. I had no complaints at first. But when we got into the class, it was a very wth-ing moment. Uhhh. Disgusting class, no offence sc3.

Came home and slept for the whole afternoon. I was already so tired from the 6 days of school. Woke up and got ready for Becky's 22th early birthday party. Ate and blablabla. Went to Michi's house. Ate some REALLY spicy indian food. My lips were practically burning red. Pics come after.

Sunday/ Today. Went for training. And the coach finally showed up. I tell you, i've been there for about a year and he has NEVER taught me ANYTHING. I was telling my mum and as usual, she told me to quit. Today was terrible la. 2moro's comp is killing my mood. Random faling moment :

Gah he serve so yeng and he still LOOKS like he blows the ball b4 he serves but he probably doesnt i suddenly can't wait to watch them play but i still dont wanna go.

I wish time would stop.

Right here.

Right now.