Part III.

So my pictures are pretty much a mess. That's blogger for me.

They started off with Perfection (of course) and then they had a short introduction thing for awhile. Moving on to Blue Tomorrow. Min, who was so beautiful, i swear i was blinded by his smile, not the blinding lights shining out from the stage. He was the happiest I've seen him ever, face to face. Or more like face to face with a few hundred ppl between us. When the music for Blue Tomorrow started and they moved to their places and Min pulled up his ribbon thing on his neck and looked at it, then smoothen it back down. It was so adorable. It looked like he was trying to see if his ribbon was the same length or something.


This is Henry coming out and singing the beginning of 'Baby' when the MC asked who's the baby in the group and they all pointed at Henry. I constantly fail to remember how young he actually is. He's the thinnest I've seen him, lost his signature mochi cheeks, his face is practically V-lined now. Sighs. I also never realised he was that much taller than Wook. ᄏᄏᄏ



This is when Zhou Mi spanked Kyu's butt while explaining how he becomes a strict teacher when he has to teach them Mandrin and they don't cooperate. It was so cute, all the KyuMi fans must be rejoicing in the fanservice. And then the MC asked who's the most shy and Kyu answered in chinese and hid behind Mi and when SerenaC said that he shouldn't hide behind him, he went and hid behind Hyuk instead. It looked like Hyuk had no idea what's going on.



Wook's solo. It was all kinds of awesome. He finally did the whole song. His smile was so.. *swoons*. Its just this thing he does. He just sings and when he stops, he suddenly flashes a really big smile before continuing. He has definitely mastered the How To Kill Fangirls skills. Sighs. He walked quite near the edge of the stage and I could see him quite clearly, it was breathtaking. He was.


Interviewing time. Kyu said something like 'Wo you yi tian.. Hen re.' which translates to "I'm a little.. very hot." His Mandrin is just always hilarious to me.

Oh. And they had 6 fans going up to ask them questions and Min's fanboy was.. touching him. Lol. At the end, they can actually hug SJM but Min shook his hand instead and Wook sneakily said 'Hug hug' at the side, so they did. Lucky guy. So cute. Hyuk's fan asked if he still wears the members' underwear and Hyuk was all "Its mine. If you want, I show you." AHH. Okay. Enough flailing.


Hyuk's solo. One word. Sexy. Very. It was the last solo performance and everyone was pretty much crazy once he stepped out in his shiny red shirt with Beats headphones and then he took his time to sexily pull on his glove and then did a Michael Jackson tribute with a million kinds of thrusting and completely scream inducing.His jawline. OMG it's a million times sexier when you see it real. But he also has gotten alot thinner. Hmmm.



Zhoumi's solo was so fantastic elastic, really. Okay maybe not so elastic cause i don't think he's very stretshy. His nose. His nose is like.. perfect. He's all perfect. Even when he's just standing there, its like he's posing for a photoshoot. His smile is all sunshine and he sings. Really well. Lol. He was pretty close too and he kept making all these faces when he was singing. Aigoo.


Min and Wook. So beautiful. That's all I can say. I never took my eyes of Min the whole time and when I couldn't see him, I watched Wook.



Kyu's solo. He didn't walk out to the platform. So sad. I barely got to see him at all throughout the performances but he did end up dancing in front of our area during Super Girl and his hair was like messy and stuck to his forehead and it was bouncy and all. Totally adorable. He was pretty un-snarky this time but he was still him.



Saying their final goodbyes. Min was all 'Saya sayang Malaysia' and stuff. And Henry was all 'I was in Taiwan and I didn't want to leave Taiwan and now I'm in Malaysia and I don't want to leave Malaysia' in his accent and all. So cute. I miss him already.


After encore, final bow and they left. ):

The one thing that I am completely upset about and its not even the annoying girl next to me who kept trying to push me and then we ended up leaning on each other the whole time or the fact that I was stepping on something slimy and sticky and totally gross or the fact that the lady in front of me was almost a head taller than me and I couldn't see a thing or when the girl further in front holds up her placard and blocks the whole of Min's face from my sight and I try not to scream at her or throw something at her head, no. It was the fact that LEE DONGHAE 이동해 (the love of my life) DID NOT COME. HE DID NOT COME. AT ALL. Sighs. SO EXTREMELY SAD. Okay. Snapping out of it now.

They were AWESOME.
<3

1 Malaysia.

Part II.

After standing and being squashed for about 3 hours, finally something happened.
Local acts.


I have no idea who he is but his song was called "Cerita Batinku", something like that? The song is screamy and he's trying to be all cool messing with the mic stand but really.. not cool.


She was cool, good singer, don't know who she is either. I liked her best though. The long-haired guitarist looked like a real young boy. Kinda cute la.


She sang Mercy. I already don't like Mercy but well. I feel bad for them. I wasn't even listening half attentively to them. I was only concerned about how my shoulder hurts and how i can't feel like leg and how the girl next to me kept pushing me.



She was the first to come up. She tried to get the crowd to jump but i think they just stared up at her blankly. Lol. Poor girl. There was no space to stand, I don't think jumping would have been a good idea.


She was cool too. I liked her song and once again, I have no idea who she is.

How nice of me to put one post up just for the local acts. Lol.

I think they finally decided to push Suju M up because apparently after that, Hujan and Kristal(?) was gonna come up but the crowd was really just.. Elfs. (:

Its currently 3am and I'm still pretty much awake but I'll write part III (and the most important part) tomorrow and I pray I dream of Min later. ᄏᄏᄏ

Himpunan Sejuta Belia

Part I.

We reached about 3.30pm(?) and on our way there, the drove past us, that woke me up immediately, my heart rate was already getting extremely abnormal, i only managed to catch a glimpse of Henry's backup dancer. -.- They were driving so fast anyway, about 5-6 seven seaters, all the windows tinted and covered.

Walked in and tried to find the main stage (there were few sad small stages with random ppl playing) and immediately when we neared, we heard the screams. Started running, stood outside the barricades and there they were. From the side, we can see Kyu and Hyuk backstage doing rehersals. At that moment, it hasn't really hit me that 'Oh, i'm looking at Hyuk right now. He's standing right there with his black fedora and black V-neck, with Kyu sitting down, messy hair, looking real thin, and just.. singing.' It was.. wow. Then we heard Zhou Mi, he was wearing a very fashionable denim sleeveless jacket, superbly tall, perfect hair. Then Henry's backup dancers, who i saw in the van, came out, they rehearsed with Henry watching them from backstage in his trademark white cap and red-white stripped shirt. Don't ask me why i have to mention what they're all wearing.


That's Henry backstage watching his dancers. Dancing along at some point, completely adorable.

They didn't let us into the front where the stage is, only after the launching which starts at 5. So we.. finally tore ourselves away from the stage and wondered around for awhile. There was alot of things going on, alot of things on sale and alot of people.



This was taken when in the beginning, when we were not dying yet. But it was hot. Very hot. Then it drizzled for awhile. -.-



The launching started, finally. Followed by alot of speeches and other random stuff. We did sing Negaraku and I did listen to our PM's speech about "Youth is not about the future. Youth is about today. Hari ini." and on and on about how we will be seated in one of the parlimen seats in the future and how we will protect Putrajaya. Uhh. Yeah, sure.



Then we walked away and they did alot of other stuff while we sat there and watched the tent. Lol. For artists. It was really funny when at some point, they tied the doors up, it was as if they didn't have enough ppl to guard the doors to prevent ppl from going in.



The launching ended with there paragliders flying over with their coloured smokes. That part was pretty cool.

Soon after, the launching was over and we tried to get in. And that's where we started dying. We finally got in and.. stuck. Stuck there standing in the middle of the crowd and not being able to move. Or breathe. There was no space, no air, just ppl. Alot of ppl and BO. Sighs. The things we do for the people we love.



And the wait started. Sighs.

기다린날도,지워질날도.

I have fringe like Jo's now. Hmmm. Her's is prettier. She'd never read this. ᄒᄒᄒᄒ
Mummy's gonna freak when she sees me. Oops.

I don't regret it. I don't love it. I don't hate.
Give me some time.

Now, I need to do intensive packing. Aigoo. I think it just suddenly hit me that I have to leave, I'm not too sure if i'm actually sad about it. I don't think I fit in at all here, but I pretty much got used to it. Ipoh? KL? Hmm. I miss having friends. Really. I think that's about it.

This is completely random but I really really miss 동해오빠.
Sighss.

Breathtaking gifts.

"How've you been?"
"I sit around and get fat everyday."

"Oh, hello. Where did you go?"
"Somewhere else."

"What are you doing?"
"The same thing i did yesterday."

******

I chose.

Falling rain.

At the very awesome lift in Iluma. I don't know why I never noticed the roof garden thing (that every mall in spore seem to have) at Iluma when I went there last time. Was the cinema always there? Hmmm.

I blame all my crazy shopaholic antics at my 3 best friends who are all stressed and depressed. Aish. I try to be apathetic but really, apathy's not for me. I'll just spend more time praying. Now that i actually have no more money to shop anymore, I'll have to resort to doing other things.

The kids. Sighs. The kids.
The food. Sighs. The food.
The life. Sighs. The life.

Oh, God.

내가 부족한가 봐.

So i've made a collection. ᄒᄒᄒᄒ. 난 행복해.

내가 미쳤어.
완전.

希.

*maniacal laughter*
ᄒᄒᄒᄒᄏᄏᄏᄏ 희희희희



Look what I found. For $5.90, I think it was completely worth it.


And just because I wanted to see this picture on my blog. (:

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I had a whole post up on my 11 days back in Malaysia and I swear I had it already posted up and the next day i checked, blogger was down for maintenance of some sort and the whole post disappeared. -.-

Now i'm slightly too lazy to re-do and re-up the whole thing. Sighs. Someday. I'll do it, someday.

Hubs and cribs.

I got on the most interesting lift yesterday. Its almost antique, this lift. It was at a surprisingly busy part of Singapore. Lets not go into detail on why i was there.

When i walked into the building, there's this weird buttons that looked like up and down. I was slightly flustered when i couldn't press any of the buttons. Creepily, one of the lift doors was open. I quickly step in when i heard someone approaching, so i didn't look so jakun.


You see those black buttons with the numbers that indicate which floor you're heading to, yeah, those are kinda creepy. I was going to the 5th floor. The second you press the button (it sinks in and does not come back out until the lift reaches the floor), the door immediately closes (really fast, it kinda scared the crap outta me) and just goes up. There isn't a open and close button. When the door opens at the 5th floor, it stays open. Lol. It stays open until someone else presses another floor. OOH. And it also has 2 doors. You walk in one and out the other.

Lol. One awesome post just for this interesting lift.

*******

Take heart.

"When I grow up, I want to be happy."

Again. I've done it again.
I hate how this is still about me.
I'm never gonna learn fast enough.

Infinite posibilities.

Colours.


Hair.


And make up.


The result.


Adventures. Hmm.
I'm still looking for more. Always.

지친다.

내가 말하고 싶은가 많아.
하지만 지금은, 아무 생각도 안나.
문제가, 난 맞죠?
매일 또 한숨.

하나님.

I walked into a church today. Or rather I think God told me to go in. I was on my off-day-jogging mood. I just wanted to walk. I just wanted to walk real long and real far. If I only I didn't have to turn around and go back. I walked pass the church but for some reason (it was probably God), I turned around and walked up the stairs.

It was big, it was beautiful, it feels like God. I lingered outside for so long, hiding from the people that walked pass. I didn't dare to walk into the auditorium but I couldn't bring myself to leave. I told myself I won't leave until I prayed.

He told me to look for doors. I did. The moment I knelt down, I already started crying. It was unexplainable, my head was almost completely empty at that moment. It felt like He held me around the shoulders and said "You found it. You found Me."

이상한 느낌이었죠.
There is no words to explain.
It was just.. God.
Am I forgiven? Again?

A short notice.

A good colleague, a good friend.
She had my back, taught me well.
First person I seeked advice from,
offering to do much more.
Words misunderstood, confusing sentences.
Corrected and learnt.

I may have been a bad person, I apologize.
I admire her ability to believe.
We may be more than acquaintances now,
we may nothing in the future.
Once in awhile I regret convincing you to leave,
now I stand alone and you still have too big of a heart.
Find the best for yourself and maybe when we meet again,
we'll still be able to understand each other.


i'm really gonna miss having you around.
이것은 끝난게 아니야.

Exchange.

"Because it's the thing I dislike the
least out of everything that I dislike."

Taken from a very awesome fic I read.

I don't want to live like that.

전화.

내가 사랑하는사람.
I remember.

사랑은 안 변해 사람이 변해.

circumstances & consequences.
responsibilities & results.


when will it be my turn?

Keep my love for you.

God tells me to welcome change.

I can't tell what changed.
I'm still doubtful, still confused, still fearful.
I'm still learning.
The road, I don't see it anymore.

Don't think.

I got it. (: If i ever find the will to, maybe i'll go get another.
But for now, i'm broke.

Noone's ever gone too far down the wrong road
and not be able to turn back.
God will make a way.
Some way. Someday.

More than never.

Went to Vivocity today. I practically spent a whole day there. Walked to every corner. Found my way to St. James Powerhouse which was the club that se7en performed in. :(

Then I walked. And walked. And walked again.


It was a 525m walk to and another 525m back on the Sentosa Boardwalk. It was evening, the sun was setting, quite a pretty sight if the sun wasn't glaring at my face the way it was.


I walked the whole 525m and then bought a pretty awesome and expensive iced lemon tea and walked back. I think we had to pay to get in but I didn't really dare to go nearer to pry. It was a good walk though.

I spent the whole day trying on clothes and shoes that I could and would never buy.


This not so impressive looking piece of denim dress did have alot of impressive little designs on it, like how every button on it is actually different and every denim used to piece it together is also different. This dress, it costs $209. -.-


This was from a very cute shop on some other mall connected (i have no idea how i got there, just alot of walking) with a very nice sales asst. and it was something like $89. Ahh. Fat.


I just wanted to wear something red. Its hard to find a red item in a not-so-intimidating-shop so I could just try in on and tell them I didn't want it. It was pretty and simple.


This was found in some other random place I walked into with a scary China aunty who was very nice who kept shoving clothes through the very transparent cloth to me. These kind of sales ppl are creepy. I don't want to have to become one. The clothes there are so cool and are apparently handmade (some had really nice drawings). That pair of really nice pink pants was $149. It had bells on it. LOL. The top was something like $49. Why would I buy some slightly lose and transparent top for $49?


Topshop? Lol. It's supposed to make people look skinny. Not.


Now this. Was completely tempting. Thank God I don't bring money out with me. Not enough to afford this anyway. Sighs. T_T The shop's called M)phosis. I have no idea how i'm supposed to pronounce it.

The most ridiculous priced thing I've seen to far is a $40 pair of flip flop. Seriously. They were just flip flops. The most normal looking pair of flip flops. I walked into Ted Baker. Didn't even dare to try anything. The placed looked to scary, other than the fact that everything was.. huge.


Coming home. Just for awhile.