"I know what I am --not much."
"It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood."
At this point I’m just sitting around wondering how I am going to move past this. There’s that sadistic side of me that just wants to sit in the pool of tears and uhh.. Cry. It’s taking it's time to sink in. It should come in like a tsunami and just like destroy everything and be on it's way. That way I can slowly move into like fixing things and restoring life. But no, it’s not happening that way. This is like a superbly long monsoon where it just rains and rains and it doesn’t stop. It never stops. There’s no short break of sunlight, there’s no rainbow. There’s just rain and more rain. The sky never brightens, the paths are never dry. The water is pooling and the water level is increasing ever so slowly, never lets me get comfortable. Then it gets harder and harder to breathe. There’s no room to breathe.
And then it ends.
It ends.
It better f*cking end.
"Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you."
-- Bon Jovi, Always
"I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all."
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