I can't read her

"언제라도 너의 곁에 빈자리가 나면 날 봐주겠니멀어지는 손 니가 잡아준다면 세상 눈부실 텐데
If someday there’s no one by your side, will you look at me? If you hold my distant hand, the world would shine brightly."

This song talks about being someone's best friend, a secret love. 

"너 아니면 나 중 한 명은 바보떠나지도 다가가지도 못하고
You or me, one of us is a fool, can’t leave nor get closer to each other."

I've loved a number of people in my life. They were all real and at that exact moment, maybe I found that I could not love anyone or anything else more. Everyone has that One Great Love, I really can't tell if I've had mine, but maybe if you're comparing every love to that one, then maybe I did. 

It was the best and the worst, all at the same time. 

Some loved me more, some didn't love me at all and some didn't know that I loved them. 

There's absolutely no point to this post, other than the fact that my mind's going all crazy wondering why all this is happening to me and why I keep making decisions like this. 

"If you see her

Tell her that she’s fcked it, I can’t read her

We both know she’s not perfect either

But if she says she loves me, let me see her."

- Lany